This time, just a year ago, my life was so very different. I was so poorly as I had been for 5 years prior. We were in financial disarray not knowing how we were going to afford the rent due in just a few days. Fast forward to now and my life has literally flipped around. I’m writing this blog post in my very own sitting room, in my very own home. If you had told me that my life would be this much better just a year later, I would never have believed you!
Living with Functional Neurological Disorder for the past 5 years, I honestly thought that my life was over, that I was destined to live in turmoil forever. I was so ill, living in constant pain. I was suffering because of the trauma I had suffered years before. It’s awful, if you go through the things I have been through, you would think that was enough suffering. Little did I know the damage the trauma caused my brain. You see, we all experience trauma at some point in our lives but it’s so important to recognise it and essentially DEAL with it. Your brain needs that otherwise, it can’t know that the danger is no longer there. I know this now and I want people to take note. We are so much more vulnerable than we realise.
My life up till now has been such a struggle. I have been so blessed throughout the years by family, friends, colleagues who didn’t give up on me. If I had dealt with all of this on my own, I honestly don’t think I would be here today. At my lowest points, I felt so lost, so trapped but there was always someone there to help me pick up my broken pieces. That’s something I will always be grateful for.
I received a phone call about a week ago from the doctor who runs the FND rehabilitation programme at the Royal hospital for Integrated medicine. When I had the treatment, I responded so well that they asked me to act as a case study and to record me in an interview. I was more than happy to help after all they had done for me. The doctor was calling to ask permission to share my interview at another huge conference for patients and medical professionals. What really touched my heart was the kind words of the doctor. She said that ‘my voice is powerful’ and that meant a lot. I want so much to make a difference, to help others and if by sharing my story I can do that, I will be so happy!
I look forward to this new year and wish all my readers a happy and blessed year ahead. I am entering this new year, stronger and healthier. We finally have our own home, my boys are thriving and I am starting a new adventure career wise. I have made some lovely new friends and am blessed to have my family and friends from Watford still supporting me.
Things can get better, it can take a very long time but if you keep believing and don’t give up hope. The sun will rise again.
I am thankful for the life I’m living and will never take things for granted ever again.
Thanks for taking the time to read my story.