Each and every day, you encounter a miraculous mixture of people. Every person you meet can awaken a thousand different emotions. Once in a while, you will come across a ‘keeper’, a perfect person who fits perfectly into your journey of life. At first, you might not even realise, other times it will hit you the minute that you meet.

These first encounters can be brought together in so many ways and that’s what can make it tricky. Do you spend your life analysing each and every meeting? Or do you simply leave it all in the hands of fate? Is it right to hope that what is meant to be, will be? No one wants to miss a special opportunity but on the other hand you don’t want to waste time with people who you’re not meant to ‘keep’.

As humans, we tend to stereo type. It’s a natural way for us to put the people we meet into categories. This doesn’t mean that we automatically judge people in a nasty way but we simply try to figure out who they are or what type of person they might be as quickly as possible. However, as you grow older you begin to realise that it’s almost impossible to understand someone after that first cross of paths.

I often wonder how people ‘see’ me. You can’t please everyone and I know that I’m definitely not everyone’s ‘cup of tea’ but it does cross my mind from time to time. Now that I’m older and since being diagnosed with FND, I find that I worry less about what others think. People will always judge. Unfortunately by putting my personal journey of living with a chronic illness on a blog, I’m giving the world a free pass to judge as much as they want. 

All I can say is this is me. I’m a 34 year old woman, mother, girlfriend (I hate that word!), teacher and now a blogger who is trying to make it through this awful journey of life with Functional Neurological Disorder. I’m far from perfect but I’m loved. I will always be grateful for my wonderful family and friends. If I had to experience this life alone, I probably wouldn’t be here. If you are alone, please reach out. No one should have to suffer without support and if I can help then please ask.

Remember, life isn’t easy but life is beautiful. We all have hard times and will suffer from time to time. It’s these times of suffering that really make you appreciate the little things. I am grateful for my ‘keepers’. Those special few who have made my life just a little bit brighter. I look forward to finding and keeping just a few more on my journey. 

I am waiting for my neuro physiotherapy to start. My legs are weak but I haven’t lost movement for 5 days. My seizures have increased but are shorter and less violent. I’m back at work so I’m going to pace myself as much as possible 🙂 

Thanks for taking the time to read my story. 

Charlotte xxx 

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