I feel quite lost. It’s a mixture of complete and utter exhaustion and panic. I have rested well and even had an extra ‘snow day’ thrown in for good measure. Yet, here I sit in pain and confusion. 

The tiredness I feel can’t simply be dealt with by sleep and rest. This tiredness is in a whole league of it’s own. I don’t even have the energy to brush my own hair. It’s like hanging over the edge of a huge cliff, clinging on for dear life but there’s just not enough strength to pull myself up again.

I know that I must ‘get on with it’ but I’m not sure that I can. It feels that I’m coming to a point where the fight is disappearing. I simply can’t keep going. Please don’t see this as a cry for help or attention. I just feel so invisible sometimes and alone. There’s no one I can really talk to. No one who really wants to listen. So I turn to my blog as a way of expressing these moments in a hope that by venting this feeling, I may get through the other side.

Here’s hoping for an extra charge of energy to get me through this week. Thanks for taking the time to read my story.

Charlotte xxx