I feel quite lost. It’s a mixture of complete and utter exhaustion and panic. I have rested well and even had an extra ‘snow day’ thrown in for good measure. Yet, here I sit in pain and confusion.
The tiredness I feel can’t simply be dealt with by sleep and rest. This tiredness is in a whole league of it’s own. I don’t even have the energy to brush my own hair. It’s like hanging over the edge of a huge cliff, clinging on for dear life but there’s just not enough strength to pull myself up again.
I know that I must ‘get on with it’ but I’m not sure that I can. It feels that I’m coming to a point where the fight is disappearing. I simply can’t keep going. Please don’t see this as a cry for help or attention. I just feel so invisible sometimes and alone. There’s no one I can really talk to. No one who really wants to listen. So I turn to my blog as a way of expressing these moments in a hope that by venting this feeling, I may get through the other side.
Here’s hoping for an extra charge of energy to get me through this week. Thanks for taking the time to read my story.